They still look beautiful in loose clothes.
They still look beautiful wearing tudung labuh.
They still look beautiful without any make up on.
Everyone is beautiful, but these are just too AWESOME!
Hai Assalamualaikum.
Alhamdulillah I'm still alive today. :')
Pernah tak ter-lalu mana mana tempat dan tempat tu dipenuhi oleh sekumpulan pelajar atau perempuan bertudung labuh, just try to imagine. Okay maybe not. You have to feel it in real life. Aku pernah rasa. Pernah. Hari hari dekat kolej aku, aku nampak. Hari hari aku rasa perasaan yang sama.
That insecure feeling is so indescribable. Rasa cemburu tu membuak-buak. Rasa macam "Ya Allah bilalah aku nak pakai tudung labuh macam diorang". Inside here, in my heart here, it says that "Hey you girls are beautiful. So beautiful!"
Rasa cemburu tu kadang kadang buat aku rasa nak jadi macam diorang, nak pakai tudung labuh jugak. Kau tak rasa adorable ke bila tengok diorang, dahlah satu badan from the top till bottom perfectly covered, and then jalan bertunduk, and they have this kegilaan with their girlfriends if you know what I mean but at the same time bila diorang nampak ada apa apa kesalahan kawan kawan diorang buat, they somehow will tegur them and bagi tahu diorang betapa berdosanya benda yang dia dah buat.
Pernah tak pergi any event full of these girls? Diorang peramah gilaaaa, and sopan gilaaaa, and they keep reminding their friends and herself about this and that, you should go sometimes, just to feel all this things. Bukan selalupun, pergi sekali dua kali pun cukup. You'll see a big difference in them that will somehow make you feel 'something'.
Bayangkanlah, aku yang perempuan ni boleh rasa sejuk je mata pandang diorang, rasa macam, ish sopannya dia ni, rasa macam ish ntahla baiknyaa, diorang kawan dengan perempuan je, and pernah jugak aku nampak one of them keluar with guy but you can see how far they sit from each other. Ahhh I feel so happy writing about them in my blog. I can imagine their faces one by one. I always see the same girl, the same person inside the surau. I only know some of them. Just imagine, I am attracted to them, and how can any guy not attracted to them? Oh wait, they are not wearing all that to attract guys. They wear all that to attract Allah, to please Allah. Awhhh, even Allah like them, why dont we like them? :')
I'm writing this thing here just to tell you how I always wanted to be like them. Wearing loose clothes, wearing tudung labuh, perform prayers five time everyday, reciting Al-Quran, go to any Islamic events, but I know. Its not easy. I'm slowly wanting to be like them, slowly.
Aku tau aku takdalah baik sangat, tak alim pun. Dosa masa lampau, banyak gila sampaikan kalau aku tulis dalam satu haripun belum tentu boleh habis. Berubah secara drastik tak termasuk dalam list aku, bukan senang okay. Tapi memandangkan perasaan insecure, cemburu tu macam kuat gila aku usahakan jugak, cuba sikit demi sedikit. Sekurang-kurangnya aku cuba.
Biarlah orang nak panggil aku ustazah, nak kata aku nampak macam makcik ke or whatever. As long as I know I've made something that I've always wanted to do, thats enough. Plus, ustazah is not that bad pun kan?
Hahah : )
I miss having friends that wears tudung labuh. I've one at my work place and one in my college. But Kak Nik from my college, I don't know where she went. I've never see her after I finished my 1st semester last year. I miss her so so much.
I'll end my post right here right now.
Assalamualaikum ;D
